The old (Jewish) year is winding down. We only have a few days left. Just a few more days and we have so much to accomplish in more ways than one. We (DH and I) have lots and lots of purely necessary, sometimes silly and sometimes tedious things. Like we had to buy a bunk bed. The old one died and was DS#3 tearfully refusing to sleep in his old crib. So in a moment of madness (read tantrum) I told him that we will get a bunk bed before Rosh Hashanah (Jewish New Year). It really NEEDED to be done. So we did it on Tuesday. One of the governmental agencies that bless us with help demanded my presence on Wednesday. Some of the paperwork was lost (by them), so I have to come back tomorrow. I am also to get a crown on tomorrow. No, I have not been elected a Quin of all I survey. It is a crown for my tooth. And though I look forward to chewing, I am still apprehensive (OK, really scared) of the procedure.
And there are cakes to be backed and chickens to be cooked and my kids are clamoring for carrot candy… Oh, and there is a huge fish head in the freezer waiting for me to cut the gills out and cook it.
Between this and that I have gotten my knitting mood back with the vengeance. I want to knit. ALL the time. Is it a defence from housework? Very possible, but I still WANT to knit.
In the brief windows of “free” (what a laugh) time left to me by kids and chores I am also trying to accomplish something very different. I am trying to think back over the year that is almost gone and think about it. I am also trying to think of what I can do to be a better person and a better Jew. Give more time and money to charity?.. Be kinder to DH and kids and DH?.. Pray more?.. I really need to work on all of this things.
We have a tradition that the Elul – the last month of the Jewish year is the easiest time to approach G-d. It is comparable to the King living in the palace. To come to him and to ask him a favor one must go through numerous doors, it is a long and difficult journey. But when the King takes a stroll across the fields, he is easily approachable, there are no doors, or guards. Elul – is that wonderful time when the King is in the field. And the only thing we need – is sincere repentance and desire to do good. That simple and that complicated.
So I am trying…
This year Rosh Hashanah will start at sundown Friday, September 18.